fear.

Last night we were driving to church and T-Pup and I were conversing. He said something along the lines of "Buster said..." and I said "but I didn't know Buster could talk!" (Buster is Ws grandmother's dog). My dear cutie of a son then said "Yep, he speaks doggy-spanish!". It still cracks me up!

What are your weaknesses? I could give you a summed up list of mine, but the one I am dealing with the most lately is fear. It is absolutely ridiculous. I am such a scaredy cat! Honestly, I am waking up each night somewhere between the hours of 2-4am terrified. My heart is usually pounding so loud that I think someone is walking through our house. Then I think "wait... is it my heart, or is someone walking through my house?". I do this every night... at least every night since August. It's so annoying. I've prayed and prayed that God would give me peace. I know that perfect love cast out fear. I know these things.

Last night (this morning) I got up at 4. I went to the couch and started praying. I went to the scriptures in 1 Samuel where David is fleeing from Saul, here to there. I ended up reading the story of Abigail and Nabal, which is one of my favorites... Abigail, oh to be like her... but this is why I share all of this. I've decided if I'm going to be fearful (which I'm not really comfy settling with that fact!) this is what I will do every night. Instead of settling for turning the television on, I'm going to dive into the Word. It was a precious moment with the Lord. My house was still and quiet (even my heart at this point!). I went back to sleep around 4:30 (and W was up within 5 minutes of that, ha) but the sleep I experienced from 4:30-7 was so sweet and peaceful. I was so grateful for my time with the Lord and as a mom of two small children, so thankful for a bit more rest to help get me through the day.

Also, a sweet friend of mine and I are now doing the 7x7 prayers from Bring the Rain. Yesterday was our first day, and I'm so excited to see what God does in my children's lives as well as my own. Another weakness of mine is praying for myself...too much! What better way to break out of my little box than praying for my children all throughout the day. (I've always prayed for my children, but it's been here or there, when I thought about it, etc.) The 7x7s are during different things we do in the day. I encourage you to check them out. And if you've never read Angie's story at Bring the Rain, you are in for a blessing.